I Have to Write it Down Somewhere

I am not big on New Year’s Resolutions. There was a period of my life where I taught leadership seminars for a student leadership group and I became a snob about goal-setting. I used to rip into goals that were “unattainable” — winning a championship or an audition. I’d pompously parrot something ridiculous like, “Well, you can’t control what the other team is going to do, you can only control yourself. Don’t set yourself up for failure with that goal.”  While one could argue there is truth to this statement, I hide behind it quite often. I am one of those people that has lofty ideals about new good habits and goals. I start out of the gate quickly and inevitably fall short of my goal within a week or two. I go out too hard, and then I kick myself for it.

I find it befitting to post this on the blog site that I had every intention of keeping up with regularly. 2 YEARS AGO! I was too ambitious. Change is gradual, and I should know better.

Here’s what I’m planning on doing: I’m starting a streak. I’m hoping it will eventually be a streak of habit-changes, but I’m going to simply start with something that I used to love that I now feel disconnected with: Running. I’m going to run every day for 24 days.

Today is January 15th, and 24 days from now it will be February 7th, 2017, which also happens to be my birthday. My minimum time is 5 minutes, and the maximum amount of time for the first week will be 10 minutes. I cringe thinking about it — it seems SO SMALL. I used to run over an hour multiple times a week, for goodness sake! But recently, I was humbled by an injury that has slowly backed me out of my running habit. The truth is, for many weeks, and then months, I was afraid to run. I don’t want that fear to hover over me. My injury is healed, and it’s time to get back out there.

Yesterday I ran for 25 minutes with segmented walking rest intervals. I felt like a wuss, but I had zero pain and I felt great after my workout. I’m not counting yesterday into my streak. Today, when I run, counts toward the streak.

I can’t promise that my posts will be eloquent or insightful, but I want to put it down somewhere so that I have something to hold me accountable. If you’re one of my XF buddies, I apologize. Maybe this new transition will push me toward completing my XF rewatch blog-postings, but I don’t want to bite off more than I can chew at this point. Hopefully, I’ll get there. Besides — they’re still “negotiating” season 11, so I’ve got time. (SIDE-EYE)

In short, I’m sorry if these posts are annoying, but they’re mostly for me. If they do happen to help someone else along the way, well, there’s that too. Maybe I’ll add some running-Mulder for motivation. 😉

-River

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